Find Yourself

I am lost and always have been, I have felt I am good at things but never a master I have felt I loved some one but not fully. Some times I think that maby I am feeling that's all i can feel but when i hear people talk about their love for things like love for music I just don't feel the same.

Last night I had a dream of a spiritual experience of what I think. So I am going to see If i have had any more of these dreams.

So Yea I am going to find myself, I am going to start with my new look go with the flow then after my GCSE's go into college and try and find whats right for me.

Photos I Found

So i'm not Blogging as much at the mo because I am real trying to concentrate on my GCSE's.

But I found the gawjud pics above, I am inspired you may see looks in the future to do with the pics above ;).

I love myself a sale me.

Sorry about the crummy nails I can honestly say i am the worst at painting nails :(

Dress, Was 5quid, reduced from 40. I am sorry but Jesus what a bargain.

I haven't been blogging all that much because of my lack of creativity but yesterday on my way home I stopped of at HnM and Superdrug. Well the lovely sales are still on and i got a whole outfit for 11 quid I could almost faint at this 11 BLOODY QUID :D.

I am a real rocker kind of girl I'm real don't feel myself in giry clothes so I stick to leather, studds and fishnets. Its just the way I am . I brought a beautiful dress and then couldn't wear it because I felt to girly in it. So when i found this dress I was so happy and it looks great with the fishnets and the belt if i do say so myself, Bit Poofy though. I am just a biker chick at heart.

Lady Gaga

I LOVE Lady Gaga. I mean LOVE I have so much respect for this woman she has given us her beautiful voice and her looks and her soul. She is truly a God in my eyes and in many others.

Super Sweet, Super Cute

I can't get wonderland of my mind I am so excited about the new Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland movie EEEEE. Here are a few photos I love :)

I got this beautiful pendant from my beloved at Christmas time and i havn't stoped wearing it since, oh i do love my boyfriend :) http://www.hsamuel.co.uk/

This little necklace it absolutely awsum if i do say so myself ,I wear glasses some times so thats why I picked it out its well cool. http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=acc%5Fjewelry&product%5Fid=1073838320&Page=3

I love this little necklace I found on the Sugar Fairy Candy Plum Website Its only 16 quid and I am real tempted to order it but its quite bland when it comes to colour if only it was pink or something , Oh sadness. http://www.sugarfairycandyplum.com/

The Female Of Human

(Does this not humour you alot)

A strange post some of you may think but I don't cair what you think if you think like that :D. I just don't think people appreciate the human nakedness enough. Yes we look pretty in clothes but god sent us on our way with no clothes. Why is being NAKED so bad. I do love to run around with no clothes on. All I am saying is if you strip us of eyes of others that is when we are truly our self's and are we not beautiful?

The Photographers name is Rosie Hardy, I just real like this photo because it sort of give of a magic feeling to it, don't you agree?

I wont lie, I found this photo on another persons blog but jessus it took my breath away and I straigh away though of my own prince charming, I am inlove with this very creative photo.

Sadness

Today I am rather sad. Its Friday night and I am stuck inside like many others in the snowy UK and what makes this even more depressing is that I wont get to see my boyfriend for another week now so i guess our 2 month plans are out the window :(. To try and cheer myself up i am listing to the babe we all know as JACK JOHNSON mmmm zer lecker( very yummy, in German). At the mo I am sipping on hot water with lemon in it, I think it taste like shit but hay .. its good for you.

(I'm all shook up)

I am in love with Elvis but I think Priscilla Presley has stolen my heart. while I was looking at pics of The King I came across this pic of him and Priscilla and I immediately fell in love with the big hair and her in general she is absolutely stunning. I now have an idole.

(My skeleton page and a pin up girl both from my art book)

Today my toes are warm and toasty in my funky slippers. I have been doing some well needed art catch up although I still need to spend a good 100 hours or something like that to get my art books up to the standard I want. So I have sort of noted in my head that this is meant to to a fashion blog but i think I going to change the theme to more of a visual arts blog.

Happiness is the colour that i breath at the moment, If happiness was a colour i would say it would have to be a dark violet because i am real loving that colour at the moment and I will show you why if you scroll down the blog a teeny bit.

Well if you are interested in why I am happy it is because I have now been with my Boyfriend for 2 month, it may not seem like a great amount of time but I am in love and God dam it I think its ruddy brilliant.

Hehe I think I am addicted to blogging and i have realised I am blogging about like every thing and any thing I just love it. Dose the weather not look beautiful if only it didn't bugger every thing up and sod up my weekend and make my toes cold i would be more then welcome to it. I cant wait till summer when all the bright colours come out and mother gives me 60 quid to spend on what I please :D. I was reading the new ELLE magazine and at the back with the horoscopes it said that my new years wont real start till Jan the 15th. That is on the day of my two good friends joined birthday party it going to be rather big so i cant wait.

Things to look forwards to this year.

Passing my GCSE's / College (hopefully)

Go back to Malta (i am partly Maltese)

Turning 16

Passing College acting course

True independence.

(this is why i love violet atm)

Better Myself

My Inspiration for about 3 months when I was preparing for my show were the two beautiful Lady's below. The way I would describe them, Lager then life and a heart throb to any one in their presents.

The Amaing Liza Minnelli

And the Stunning Catherine Zeta Jones

(This is a photo from my college performance as you can see i was the only one to wear black lipstick, the only one to wear a corset and the only one to wear a tutu. I think if your going to do cabaret then you might as well have fun and dress up to the max doing it.)

I am real wanting to better myself this year but i just don't know how. Yea I want to lose weight and I want to reach the IQ of a rocket scientist but its not something i real want to go out of my way for to achieve. We are real entering the New year the though of 2010 still hasn't made a standing obvious in my head.. yet. So so far I have been trying to lost the Christmas tum i was doing real well before Xmas and its real pissing me of that the tum wont budge. So I am Wii Fitting more frequently now to try lose this extra weight.

Another thing I am real keen on doing is passing my GCSE's and my college course, I take some time of school every week to go to college to do a preforming arts course. My last performance was cabaret and i did rather enjoy it. I am also thinking alot about what I want to work as when I leave college I am thinking along the lines of a producer maby acting, definitely using my artistic skills. But until then i real have to studie and i am finding it very boring I just want to get the GCSE's out the way and enjoy my life.

Goals for 2010

1. Pass the GCSE's

2. Lose the extra weigh i have gained over the holidays

3. Enjoy life more

Random bits

"Dreams dance with us and they are the prize at the end of a race how ever short or long it may be, but when we bound our dreams to our pillows the peak of happiness wont reach nearly as high as it should." - By yours truly

I have been thinking about my future. I am in my last year of school and i have something like 70 odd bob days till I break lose of the ridged shackles of forced education into the blaze of independence to wallow in -Freedom-.

I am thinking highly of my self and I want to be of use to the human race by making our world beautiful not only beautiful but kinder and more excepting. I have always though that from the strange come the beautiful, and the beautiful spill ugly splodges of greed, hate, and anger well their are exceptions.

The ugly Duckling may explain how i feel.

I have never real seen myself as so much as the word "human", I see the sheep's that follow the crowd human. I believe we are all born differently because we are all different we weren't made to be molded into the way others are. We weren't born to all be super models or actors. No we were born to be our self's and that is what I want to be Myself.

This has been quiet an expressive post and I hope you enjoyed it. Thank you for reading and looking. xx

TURKEY

Right I know this is random but hay, I'm about as random as some one can get. Last night i was thinking about birds nests with legs while I was listing my my boyfriend talk about .... What was he saying. Anyways
http://www.adoptaturkey.org/aat/adopt/sponsor.html
I strongly suggest that Adopting a Turkey would be the best investment you could make.

Style Of My Own

"Everyone is of course free to interpret the work in his own way. I think seeing a picture is one thing and interpreting it is another."
....Jasper Johns







What i am wearing.

A Flannel Shirt from DIRTY HARRY (a great shop in the lanes of Brighton).

Black vest from Primark. Skirt sorry but i cant remember. The sun glasses are from Miss Selfridges.

The Necklace I fixed together myself on it i have; a Crucifix, a small dog tag a gold and silver heart a music note, a skull and a ring that was my best friends but he gave it to me.
I am also wearing a heart white gold necklace (a pressent from my boyfriend).

Today i have been very chilled out doing some art work, Pop art for the moment. I have discoverd a band called " The Virgins" and I am enjoying them very much. Yesterday I finnished "Twilight" omg i love that book.